January 27, 2013


 *picture from today that has nothing to do with this post!*

Current weight: 148
Last week: 150
Starting weight: 150  
Goal: 130
Time Left: 14 Weeks

Yay for 2lbs down!

Losing weight is not easy, neither is staying off the scale but like anything thing else is life it must be done. When you read this please remember that everyone is different. What might work for me, may not work for you. I am simply sharing my story and hopefully someone gets something out of it!

Just to review my post from last week, my plan is and has been to stick to 1500 calories a day, mean I can eat whatever I want, nothing is off the table, just as long as I don't go over that magic number. Sticking to this really hasn't been that hard as there are so much things that I can eat during that day while keeping to my goal. The hard part was not stuffing my face just because. You know those moments when you watch an episode of your favorite cooking show and you just go "oooooh! I want that!" Those moments are terrible for someone trying to lose weight! What do I do to counteract this? I give in to my cravings! If I want chocolate, I'll have a damn chocolate but being that I know this about myself I make sure to reserve calories during that day so that I can give into my sweet tooth.

I got a jump rope from the dollar store and every night I would skip for 10 minutes to fast paced song compliments of YouTube! TEN minutes people! There is no way you don't have time for 10 minutes. The reason why I chose this route is because I wanted to do something that didn't require me spending much money, I didn't want to have to leave my house, and those cheesy work out videos really get irritating. In addition to jump rope, I also signed up for my companies Dodgeball team that plays every Wednesday nights. I also signed up for Basketball Boot camp that meets every Thursdays. Since they activities are organized by my company they are both free of charge.

My plans for this week is to up my work out a little. YouTube as a whole slew of work-out videos and as much as I don't like them I kind of have to suck it up and do it. BeFit is a channel that has a lot of 10 minute videos including some Jillian Michaels so I will add some more cardio at the end of my 10 minutes of jump rope!

There is so much that I could write about my week and what I feel and what I have learned but I will save that for another time. Please, if anyone has any tips let me know!

January 20, 2013


"This is the last summer I will spend this way," I say every summer as I disparagingly catch a glance at myself in a full length mirror, usually under terrible mall florescent lighting.

I have been saying this for the past 5 years now.

As I was in our laundry/storage room this afternoon looking to knock the dust of some workout gear I found a picture of my 20 year old self. She had the brightest smile, the nicest skin, and a sizzling body. I miss her.

I am by no means fat but I am definitely not where I want to be. 

I hate being self conscious.

I miss being able to walk into a store and pick anything off the rack and not worrying about how my belly will look in them.

I am tired of having to suck in my gut.

I hate wearing spanx.

Another part of my New Years resolution is to lose 20 pounds. I will be doing this with a combonation of "diet" and exercise. I use quotations because I don't personally believe in denying myself a certain type of food, but I do believe in amping up the fruits and veggies so that I can have a treat here or there in moderation. I will be sticking to 1500 calories a day and working out 6 days a week.

Starting Weight: 150
Goal Weight: 130
Time Left: 15 Weeks

January 8, 2013


During the weekend I got to play Dr. Wife to my sick husband who has the flu, just like the rest of North America, am I right? It was actually fun to wait on him while juggling everything else in the house; being the 1940's wife for once because goodness know, I'm not always like that. 

"Do you want me to put a dvd in?" I asked. (we don't get cable in our bedroom)

"No.." He groans. 

"I can get your tablet!" I suggested

"No.." He audibly mumbles

"Okay Pup," I kiss him on the forehead and leave him in peace.

Everything was fine up until I noticed one of the boys started to feel warm and started talking all funny. Then the other one started to feel warm and began talking all funny. Oh no! I thought. The last thing I wanted was for them to get sick so on Sunday Joshua spent a good portion of his time in his room drinking soup, eating crackers and guzzling down as much juice as he could take. Lucas anchored himself to my lap wanting nothing more that for me to cradle him in my arms...so sweet huh?

Today Aaron was healthy enough to go back to work but Lucas still had a fever so we kept them home which means I had to miss work today. I hate having to miss work because I actually love to go, but at the same time I would have hated to risk sending Lucas to daycare or leave him with a babysitter. When they are sick I'm sure all they want is their parents and all we want is to be there for them.

January 4, 2013


"If your life were a book, what would the title be?"  Someone asked at work today while I was in a fog of exhaustion. I was staring at the computer screen for hours on end.

I stopped what I was doing.

I sat back in my chair tilting it slightly.

I thought.

"That's a hard question," I replied still scratching at my brain. I was surprised that this innocuous question had me so deep in thought. "This requires a lot of self exploration." 

It's not as if I live(d) the kind of life style the stands out and on it's own worthy of an unique and captivating book title. If I were an exhibitionist perhaps I would call it Letting it All Hang Out or something of a similar wit. So I thought to myself, in these short years that I have spent on this earth what is it that I have learned about myself.

Then the answer came.

The title of my book would be All the Thing I Didn't Know. 

What I learned the most about myself is that I don't have all the answers to everything. As time went on, as I got a bit older and had a few more experiences I learned just how much I really didn't know, how much I had left to learn.

Apparently there is this thing or tread going around with different bloggers. They pick their "word" for the year as an alternative to the regular new years resolutions. Well I have set some resolutions but in addition to that I will also choose a word and my word is, as you might have guessed, Learn.  I want to learn about myself, about others, about this wonderful world I live in. I want to learn about mothering and loving my husband and most of all I want to learn to be a better me.

January 1, 2013


I initially wanted to do a post about the new years resolution I made for 2013 but when I began to elaborated on each one I realized it would be best if I dedicated a post for each resolution.



 I am supposed to be an adult.

I'm turning 28 this year.

I've been married now for going on 6 years now.

I have two beautiful boys.

I have a full-time "big persons" job.

Yet I am visually reminded every day as I look around my home, how "un-adult" I am.  I only have 4 dinner plates and none of them match the other, the newest one I have is the red one that I got from Ikea when Aaron and I moved into our first apartment before we were even married, I had gotten another one but it broke a long time ago. Frankly, nothing we own really matches, no our utensils, bowls (only have 1) or our furniture have a cohesiveness to it. There is no statement, no summary of who we are as people. You know that feeling you get when you step into someones home and you instantly get a feeling for the people that live there? Yeah, we don't have that going on in the Smith household.

The first step will be easy, purchase a dinnerware and flatware  set. I want to complete this task by the end of the month. After that I will start with the walls, hanging pictures, putting up a mirror that will go over my soon-to-be-purchased buffet table in the dining room. The more expensive part will be to buy new furniture like a new couch/love seat, a coffee table, entertainment unit and my buffet table. 

I have the entire year to get all of this done. If I work on it a little at a time it should all happen in no time!