January 20, 2013
A NEW YEAR: A NEW BODY
"This is the last summer I will spend this way," I say every summer as I disparagingly catch a glance at myself in a full length mirror, usually under terrible mall florescent lighting.
I have been saying this for the past 5 years now.
As I was in our laundry/storage room this afternoon looking to knock the dust of some workout gear I found a picture of my 20 year old self. She had the brightest smile, the nicest skin, and a sizzling body. I miss her.
I am by no means fat but I am definitely not where I want to be.
I hate being self conscious.
I miss being able to walk into a store and pick anything off the rack and not worrying about how my belly will look in them.
I am tired of having to suck in my gut.
I hate wearing spanx.
Another part of my New Years resolution is to lose 20 pounds. I will be doing this with a combonation of "diet" and exercise. I use quotations because I don't personally believe in denying myself a certain type of food, but I do believe in amping up the fruits and veggies so that I can have a treat here or there in moderation. I will be sticking to 1500 calories a day and working out 6 days a week.
Starting Weight: 150
Goal Weight: 130
Time Left: 15 Weeks